I must apologise for my ramblings.
I suffer from a condition known as Sleep Apnea. This is when you stop breathing while asleep. Usually this does not interfere with my life too much except during periods of stress. When it's at its worst, I tend to lose touch with reality because of sleep deprivation and I sometimes dream while I am awake. When it's bad I don't know what is real and what is a waking dream.
I think that I have done things only to find that I haven't. One thing I have learned, is that it is not sensible to trade when it is like this.
So for the moment, I will cut out the alcohol (that makes it worse) and hope that I return to sanity soon

I had surgery for this problem some years back, it is better than it used to be, but still rears up occasionally. I haven't suffered with it for about a year now.
Keith